Destiny cannot be shaken

Enough of the penguins, although they were cute. 

I'm feelin' that it's time for a change but it doesn't seem as though things have changed so much lately.  I'm still perfectly miserable here.  I'm still struggling to get where I want to get to.  And.  To be honest, I think I'm starting to crack under the pressure =_=; I don't care about school, work just gives me a headache and I'm constantly bitchy around people. 

I just miss him.  I miss home.  I miss when things made sense. 

And, what scares me in the midst of this struggle is that I'm afraid I'll never get there. 

3 months; 4 days. 

Guess I'm kindof starting over with this journal.  <3

I think I'm the one tearing myself apart here more than anyone.

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.

At this point, I think I'm rethinking everything.  I don't know... I just feel the need to rearrange everything in my life for it to work.  Friends, family, school... priorities in general. 

I don't know; I'm not making sense right now.  I'll put more thought into this when I'm not upped on Nyquil.

Okay.  So... I deserved it x.o;

I'm better off just waiting for forgiveness.  At the risk of sounding cocky... I did already ask for it.

i suppose this works.